The truth is that I often feel like I have no clue what I’m doing when it comes to parenting my toddler. Ok, that is a lie. I ALWAYS feel like I have no clue what I’m doing when it comes to parenting my toddler. Really. I know jack shit about being a mom. And that is really scary.
I think I’m doing an ok job. My kid has pleasant enough and people seem to like her (despite things like this). My friends that are moms say most of her behavior is age appropriate and that they think what I’m doing is fine. I read books and magazines, talk to people and gather information, watch what other parents do. I’m trying not to bumble through this like an idiot, but really, most days it feels like I AM just bumbling.
What it comes down to is that now, more than ever, it is apparent that I am helping to shape a person. Someone with feelings and thoughts and personality all her own. Someday, she will be an adult and I don’t want people looking at her and thinking “WTF did her parents do wrong?”
And yes, I know its selfish to worry about people judging my parenting. Really, I do want to shape her into a reasonable and productive person. Someone that is caring, compassionate and hardworking. A good person.
Hands down, this is the hardest job I’ve ever had.
Wow, I could have written this about my soon-to-be 10-year-old. Have people started to tell you that it gets harder the older they get? It’s annoying, but it’s true. At times it’s like arguing with a hyperactive and naughty toddler who can argue back. It doesn’t help that THE KID is a smaller version of me.
BTW, we have more good days than bad, so don’t let this depress you.
I think the key to good parenting is to practice what you preach and be consistent. Good luck!
I’m glad to know that someone else feels this way….I feel like most of the time I have absolutely no idea what’s going on, and what I’m doing, and dearGOD please don’t let her ever find out I felt this clueless.